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言葉プロファイルリストーリンクー話し記憶 | |||||
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Layout: Bakuman - Dream x manga 「バクマン-夢 x 漫画」 ft. Saikou Don't rip = less copyright rules set in the whole world ;3 |
Today, on the 24th of November, the son of the 1st batch Ruki and Shiro produced, passed away. I know, I hadn't been a good owner of the hamsters ever since Aiko came, but I still changed their cages and seeing them happy made me happy too. I just hope Tora's resting in a place where he doesn't have to put up with the shitty care I gave and is happy together with Shiro, his mother. God knows how much I mourned and cried when Shiro died. Now, the mention of her sometimes brings tears to my eyes. I miss her dearly. The thing was that, Tora, he didn't die a natural death. I came home today after tuition and I was thinking of changing the cages. When I went to check on the hamsters outside, The yellow cage which housed Ruki and Tora had the cover of the top level missing. What's worse was that the top level which was Tora's quarters were actually burnt. There was soot and the smell of burning plastic. And of course, Tora, was nowhere to be found. I was a bit surprised. But it was good that Ruki was safe and sound on the second level and Bou was alright in her cage. I tried to find out what happened to Tora. Probably in my heart, I would've knew what had happened to Tora. The other tenant in the house. The boy born from the same mother and 2 years older than me. My brother. The last time, he actually said somehting about having been tired of putting up with my hamsters because of the smell and all that and on the day where I went to the arcade with Nanoha, I came back and saw my hamsters sitting right in front of the doorstep. It appeared that my brother said he couldn't take it because Aiko kept barking at them and then shifted it outside where he refused to let my mother take them back in and made me carry them in myself. Another occasion, he actually asked me if he noticed any changes in my hamsters. Then he confessed that he burnt Tora's whiskers. I checked on Tora immediately and noticed that there were some whiskers of his that looked as though they were burnt. There was also another time, where my brother and mother had some quarrel. He went outside with the stove lighter after that. And he stuck the lighter into the hole in the cage and switched it on, trying to burn Tora. Tora kept running around in circles because he was scared of the flame and my mother and I had to persuade him to stop him from burning Tora. His reason was only because of his life. All because he felt shitty and needed an outlet to put his anger on. I don't know if it was for fun or anything like that, but he had this amused expression on his face. So then, I guessed my brother was the culprit for this. He confessed later on anyway, saying he burnt Tora to death. He still dared to ask me if I was okay. And he even told me I should have given my hamsters away. I just don't know my feelings at the moment. I just cried I guess. I could picture Tora, he was burning away, in pain. I just don't know. Yes. I'm crying away, typing this post out. Typing this post is quite painful to me, but not quite as painful as the time when Shiro passed on. Tora died an unfair death. It wasn't his time yet. I just feel so sad for Tora and angry at my brother. He, always, caused unhappiness for the family. Our personalities are different. He always does things that make him think he's unique. Like piercings and all that. He knew my parents would get angry but he still did it, with that idea in mind. I don't really know if he likes to make people angry. It's like his life revolves around his girlfriends only. When he broke up with Vanny, he was so broken hearted and angry. I don't know what's up with him and his tastes, frankly. It's like all the girls he likes are hoes in one way or another. The recent one that came and left was this girl who put makeup, like Vanny. And her toenails were painted yellowish gold. I can't fathom what kind of shits my brother likes. He likes girls with makeup and sexy looks or something? Vanny and some of the girls he brought back really doesn't know how to conceal themselves. They have freakin' fat thighs that are fatter than mine which are fat and my brother still finds them nice in short shorts when they obviously look like their thighs are sausages growing out of their short shorts -_-. I'm really upset and disappointed with my brother. I also wonder why all the girls really flock to him. If any of you girls are reading this, don't be offended. But if you were me, his sibling. You'd probably think he's fucked up. What you see is only 1/4. He might look handsome and macho, gangsterish,. Whatever your type is. But if only you knew how violent he is. If only you were his mother, you would understand how much pain inflicted on his parents. I wonder if this is a good time to say this, but you hoes who keep coming over to our place and closing the fucking door. Friends, girlfriends. Whatever relations you might have with him. I wish you'd just fucking stop or something. Look, if you want to meet him, meet him outside, you can screw outside, at your place, whatever. Just don't come to our place and close the door. God knows how you guys can even tolerate the stink his room has. Unless your nose has some sort of smelling disorder, or your nose is some kind of air purifier which can purify the stinking odour of his body into some nice smelling lavender scent which appeals to you. I don't even understand how you can LIKE someone who takes it on on furniture and people by threatening them with a knife and abusing animals. I just think Tora's death is unfair. Not called for. He was innocent. It might be an animal but it's still a living thing. I wonder if any of you would love it if your sibling just kills your pets without saying anything and giving stupid reason. He called my mother just now to tell her he burnt my hamster to death. He could even do that. Saying he pretended that was our dad and killed it. He has no right. Inhumane. My dad might treat him like shit sometimes, but it all goes back to my brother. Whose behaviour made most of the things happen. It had to be living. An animal. I wonder if he's possessed sometimes. I can only hope in time that God can see all this happening and that retribution's coming for my brother. I don't know when he'd change. He keeps saying in letters when he was in hostel about how much he loved us and will try to change. He came back anyway, changed a bit at the beginning, and then back to threatening my mum with knives occasionally and losing his temper when he doesn't have his way. He actually broke my dad's door and he didn't really pay up on the debts he owed us. He owed me for my two Chrno Crusade books he lost in hostel. He still kept up with smoking. I just hope I won't die of lung cancer from the second hand smoke. I wish God would really just show him how much pain and annoyance he causes my mum and change him and his rotten character. He isn't the best brother in the world.. I know that, and although he tells me to tell him if there's any trouble I have that I can't handle and protecting me and that jazz.. I appreciate his offer to help but in this situation now, I would rather give up his 'help' and wait for him to change than to keep this state of things going. He just can't see anything. He actually knew what he was doing was wrong, killing my hamster. But he went ahead anyway. Someone. Anyone. Change my brother for the better please. On 24.11.09 at Tuesday, November 24, 2009 |
☆俺DEATH★
Name: Masamune Shiroki. For short, shiro-chan. 名前:正宗 しろき ; ニックネーム: しろちゃん The day I crashed into Earth : 28/10 誕生日:28・10 スカID [Skype ID]: shiroki.masamune [気転にAddしてねw] メールアド[E-mail] : kirisaki_no_namida@hotmail.com To whom it may concern: I'm an Otaku, I am as human as you. Or not. Likes: ★漫画 [Manga] ★アニメ [Anime] ★ドラム [Drums] ★ニコニコ動画 [Nico Nico Douga] ★ようつべ [Youtube] ★Alice : Madness Returns ★V系 [Visual-Kei] Inspirational figures:
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